Anyone who knows me knows that I believe we all receive messages from God. Last Wednesday night I was up to the very wee hours of the night in tears. I had come to some revelations that I had really yet to face. The pain was real as I pulled off the scabs to reveal the source of the pain.
So what happened? Well, I was having a conversation with someone very close to me. Within the confines of the conversation the person asked me a “normal” set of questions (for them). I was upset by the line of questioning. After hanging up I took a moment to reflect on the conversation. My takeaway was that the person did not TRULY believe that I was capable of achieving greatness. As I thought about it further, I realized (through my tears) that it was very possible that the other person did not believe in me because I did not fully believe in me. Oh sure, I know that I can achieve anything I put my mind to. I know of some of my accomplishments of the past, but when it comes down to truly believing that I can achieve great things and earn lots of money in the process the belief has just not been there. I always thought “I need to marry a wealthy man to provide in the lifestyle I dream of” not “I will be very financially successful on my own and having a partner who matches that is a bonus.”
I cried and I cried as I realized that I have been holding me back. You see the Universe will not bring to you what you can not envision. Sure, I can find pictures of fabulous homes, jewelry (my true passion), and cars to place on my vision board. Yes, I love the idea of them and I want them. BUT, the pictures on the vision board are devoid of me and the pictures in my mind have been also. I have just admired the pretty pictures. I have not believed I would/could/should be in those pictures.
So what happens next is where God begins to speak to me. The message comes at me- hard, loud and clear. I leave the day after this call to go to Atlanta to attend a sales conference for my Visalus business. What is the theme of the weekend? You already know don’t you? BELIEVE. Yes, I am about to get it from all angles. So I sit on Friday night as I listen to dynamic speakers and my company’s co-founders ask “Do you believe in yourself enough to do what is required?” The tears again flowed. I was being hit with the same message from the night before.
SOOOOO… obviously the message of the weekend for me was that a big change is in order. It seems like a tall order, but maybe not. You see I do know and understand the power of belief. On yesterday morning I missed my 7:00 a.m. flight out of Atlanta. Now this wouldnt’ve been a problem except for the fact that I was supposed to appear in a church production on yesterday afternoon. I called the airline en route to the airport and was told that I should go and request standby on the next plane which was leaving at 10:30. She said there was “plenty of room.” I arrived and went to ticket counter to be put on standby. Done. Now we’re cooking. Arrived at the gate (mind you this is now 8:00 a.m.) and was told by the gate agent “this flight is full. As a matter of fact it’s oversold by 4 people. I don’t know why they told you it was open, but I’ve known that since I got here at 6:00 a.m. I’m gonna have to give vouchers to get people off this flight.” WOW! She also advised me of the next flight times and confirmed me on a 8:00 p.m. flight home. What did I do? I texted my play director and babysitter to advise of the issue and I waited patiently. I purchased a muffin.. and I waited. People began to board… and I waited. Gate agent asked for people to give up seats… and I waited. I reached out to my team in Atlanta… and I waited. She called me over “there’s a good change I’m going to get you on”… and I waited. I counted how many people took the vouchers… and I waited. It’s now very close to takeoff. She calls a lady over to give her a seat assignment and then turns to me and says “I’m sorry. I needed one more person to give up their seat. I can’t get you on.”… and I waited! I didn’t move… and then I heard her walk around to the boarding door and say something about lady waiting on standby. She and the lady come back around to the desk and she says “she’s gonna give you her seat and take a voucher. Here’s your boarding pass. Go get on the plane.” The moral of the story? I never stopped believing I would get on that plane. Even when she told me that all seats were gone, I didn’t move. I KNOW how to believe in things outside of myself. I need to apply that inward. It is time to have unmovable, unshakable faith in me and all that I can achieve!! I can show you better than I can tell you. Watch what happens next!!